Thank you honey for being my one and only subscriber so far. I’m not ashamed of having only one, because you’re the best! You support me and I know you “have my back”. You are the one who is there to dust me off when I fall and I thank you for that. As a creative I needed to hear a few encouraging words to help me do my research and start writing.
I’ve already suffered trauma and now I’m going to write about it? “Better have tough skin”, some will say. “Be prepared”, another will offer. I am going to be brave and take the first step into the arena. I watched the video (linked below) to help me take that first step. Thank you Brené Brown for giving me the courage to “show up” and be present.
Brené Brown: Why Your Critics Aren't The Ones Who Count
Trauma
The book I’m writing will actually be a memoir, but will read like a novel, because it’s my story. Writing the book like it is fiction, complete with characters and a theme, I hope will make the subject of trauma a little easier to talk about. At least for me and possibly for the reader. I believe if written in a non-fiction style it would make the subject (and the book) cold and distant. Not the style I’m going for. I want to make it personal, to reach others that are where I’ve been. To build a community that supports each other and finds commonality instead of division in the world. It’s time to move on past the pain and remember the saying:
Hurt people, hurt people.
Dealing with trauma is like peeling back layers of an onion and exposing the core, the essence of the onion under all the papery outer layers. At times it can get pretty smelly and knowing who will be there as your base is like a life net .. waiting to catch you if you fall. But then there are always people who can’t wait to see you fail. I’ve tried to steer clear of the last bunch.
There is an element of trust in sharing — it’s caring. Loving others enough to take a chance. Finding the courage to write and in doing so, finding the support of the readers…that is what I’m working on today.
The insecurities of not being “good enough” can cause trauma as can many other life experiences. Trauma can come at different times of our life and in many different forms. Some traumas can happen when we are young, even pre-verbal. We may not remember, at least initially, as was in my case.
I’ll be doing more research on the subject to help me take a different perspective on the events that happened in my life. I am attempting to shift from being a victim to being a survivor. I want to learn to turn away from blame and shame and move on to joy and peace. I’m taking the first step in reaching out to others who are on a similar journey. You are welcome to join me and join my one, most loyal fan.